I Left My Heart in New Mexico

And I am Going to Find it…

2 min readJun 10, 2024

T minus 6 and counting…

I received a message from a friend this morning,

a video

of New Mexico,

New Mexico,

New Mexico.

My heart, my heart, my heart,

I cried a really big cry.

I miss it so much.

Yes, it was brutal,

yes, it was poor,

yes, I lived in really, really hard ways,

but this thing,

this society thing,

it ain’t me so well.

I mean, don’t get me wrong,

I just had a great weekend,

at the Marriott in Salt Lake City.

It was fun and I hope it will help a lot of people.

But man, am I overstimulated.

I didn’t know I was.

My calcium levels are high,

maybe related to my thyroid or the chemo.

Of course, in the back of my mind, there’s also… is it cancer?

I have been in Salt Lake City for three years.

There are so many amazing people, wonderful friends, nature.

But I am CLAUSTROPHOBIC.

In 6 days, I will pack the truck,

and drive to New Mexico,

where I will reside

in an artist’s off-the-grid house,

which I am calling my hermitage,

for 4 weeks.

I am so ready, I am so ready, I am also scared.

My intention for this pilgrimage is to be alone with myself,

to rest,

to recover,

and to write.

So here we go.